Fiercely Independent Pam

Tag: Chronic Illness

  • Chronic Illness and Missing Out on the Good Things!

    Chronic Illness and Missing Out on the Good Things!

    So, my medical issues caught up with my social life, again… Chronic illness means that sometimes, often, you miss out on great things.

    Today is my niece’s high school graduation party. The one she planned herself and I am so proud of the young adult she is becoming. She has her mind focused, Jesus in her heart, and BIG plans for the future. She is one of the big reasons I live here, I want to be part of their lives and watch them grow.

    Over the last week, I was hospitalized for six days. I’m dealing with some major GI issues and still on a pretty restrictive diet. That coupled with the heat/humidity is a recipe for disaster and the last thing I would want to do is take attention away from her on the big day by needing medical attention. All of this to say, I will be staying home and not attending.

    Being a grown-up means making decisions that are in your best interest as well as the best interest of those you care about. Its not about what is the most fun or doing what you want all the time and that tends to be one of the hardest pills to swallow with chronic illness. I can deal with the procedures, doctor appointments, medicine’s side effects, and more, but missing out on the BIG things is just so hard.

    I know that my niece and the rest of the family understands- they are great about it, but it doesn’t make my disappointment any easier. I will find another way to celebrate my niece (in air-conditioning)and life will move along. I will eventually just chalk this up to my life right now and realize that making the right choice is always the better choice.

    I hate sounding so “down” and I really am not. I just think it’s important to point out that everything isn’t always sunshine and rainbows! Chronic illness is a hard thing to battle every moment. You are juggling so many different things and every day, or even every hour is different. You just never know what is going to happen. So, my fellow chronic illness fighters- keep the faith and good fight. For my family and friends- thank you for your understanding and knowing its not about what I want to do.

  • Paying the Price of a Fun Time: How Chronic Illness Always Wins!

    Chronic illness’ worst feature is that it ALWAYS shows up! Somedays you think you have outsmarted it and you got away with something, but payback stinks! I had a super busy and rewarding week. Besides my awesome PAALS visit, I had doctor’s appointments, tech classes, and some family/friends time. Now I am “paying” for it! I hate this.

    For the last 2 1/2-3 weeks I’ve been dealing with some nasty GI issues. I am not quite sure what is going on, but having trouble keeping food down after I eat, regardless of what I eat and dealing with some major abdominal pain. So far we know my platelets are low and my liver enzymes are super high and increasing. Additionally, my spleen is also enlarged. CT hasn’t shown any blockages or anything surgical, which is good since all my major disposable organs are gone!

    I have been working with an awesome, old school type GI doctor who has ordered a huge outpatient workup, but scheduling these tests in a timely manner has been difficult. Yesterday, I drew a line in the sand and decided something had to give. The pain was making me miserable.

    So, I am back at the hospital, trying to find some answers while they help manage the pain and nausea. I would be lying if if didn’t admit that I am nervous that this might go the direction I was going in several years ago, when I ended up with a PEG tube for feeding. That continues to be one of the hardest medical journeys I have taken. I just keep reminding myself that this is most likely something different and that is not the path we are on.

    I am thankful they admitted me this time. I need some answers and some relief. For now, I am resting and trying to get a hold of this stupid pain.

    I’ll be in touch with updates!

  • I’m Home and Eating in The Dining Room Again Time To Share All that Is Going On!

    Time for a new blog entry I am so Close to making something happen and celebrating it! I found out that my blog isn’t reaching as far as I thought it would. I hope you are able to share it with others but giving it a like and resharing or reposting would be even better. I really need to grow my audience.

    Also, If you know of anyone that might need tutoring services, especially Dyslexia services, I am open and looking to book! Please Share my information with others. I have 25+years of experience and consider myself quite good!