Tag: wish I could stand up! Need More Strength

  • The Honest Truth of Where I am… the Good and the Bad!

    The Honest Truth of Where I am… the Good and the Bad!

    So, I’ve been pumping out blog posts and making sure they match the highest SEO, which means I have to write with a specific pattern. I feel like I’m not able to simply write anymore and I don’t like that. I want to connect with my audience and the truth.

    Here is the honest truth. I feel like a squirrel having to use the transfer board to go from chair to wheelchair to bed to wheelchair and all over again. It is less than fun. It’s a lot of work to line up the transfer and then make sure all is set to go. Luckily I’m getting good at it, but It truly is not fun.

    Second truth, I am unable to use the toilet. It is super low and I am not strong enough to lift myself off of the toilet. This is going to take the most time and I really miss using a toilet. The OT helped me order a 5 inch lift so when the time comes that will be helpful.

    I desperately want things to go back to normal, or even better than normal when I use my Zeen. It’s hard to fight the urge to create timelines in my head for when everything will happen. The more I do that, the harder it is to meet those goals.

    Until then, I will do everything I need to to get in exercise, rest my bottom, and dream of days of taking my service dog out for a walk with my Zeen- This is the image I need to focus on!

  • I Made It Home, Missing Some Strength, But It Felt Great To Sleep In My Own Bed!

    Well I made it home! Not the prettiest of returns as I still can’t make it on and off the toilet without help, (need more strength) but I have a work around. It’s just that my toileting is a little backwards and I am missing strength. I know what I have to do, it’s just a matter of doing it. Now I am waiting for the nurse(to do resumption of care) and my caregiver to shower and complete laundry.

    All of this could be prevented if I could just stand up and use more strength. It’s frustrating to know your own body is betraying you. I guess I just need time to get stronger. I know it is happening at least now I understand what is actually happening. I also realize I overbought items (maybe I will return some to get money back.) Today I would also like to start figuring out my bank account that is a big mess.

    I am missing a good keyword(strength) in this blog post- it’s something I’ve learned to use to get more traffic.