Fiercely Independent Pam

Category: Updates

  • Still Stuck: Needing an SOS To Get Home, Just Not a “Ride or Die!”…But Maybe a Zeen too!

    SO, I’m still stuck at the hospital awaiting a new picc line, everything else is all set to go home. I wish I was stronger and felt more confident about getting up and about, but it is beyond time to leave here and just “make it happen.”After all, my Zeen is awaiting me, along with my comfy bed.

    My Zeen is awaiting me and I am eager to try it out and use it for meals and getting around. It will be a big game changer for me in terms of using my legs and not always being “stuck” in my awesome wheelchair. I will be sure to post some videos once I get the hang of it and such. Decorating the Zeen is of high priority as well!

    I am glad too to not being taking the foley catheter with me, of course this means I have to be able to manage the toilet and self-cathing again. The foley causes so many problems including kinks and what I call “floods” meaning I feel like I have to pee but its happens too quickly to do anything with. So, I make a mess. Hopefully, once I get home and back on my regular meds and without a foley, I’ll stay dryer.

    In other worlds, I found this image and it too fits me like a “T” Mostly about needing to stop and get some food. I miss my friend who is in rehab from shoulder surgery and looking forward to reconnecting with her again. She is working hard at rehab and hopefully all the hard work will pay off. We are not necessarily “a ride and die” type of people, but I do trust her with my life and count on her as part of my “Tribe.”

  • Infection Invaders: Trying to Stay Together In Light of Many Different Infections!

    So, I’ve been a little trapped here at the hospital. Faced with a large kidney stone, Picc line infection, as well as a pretty bad UTI, I’ve haven’t been feeling the best. I will need several weeks of IV antibiotics at home and hopefully home tomorrow after a new picc line and clear cultures.

    I really hoped to avoid the chaos of all of this, mostly the IV antibiotics because they are both expensive over time and require a lot of attention. Hopefully they will come in the form of the “squeeze ball” and not a pump. Either way in creates a lot of medical trash and organization in dealing with various infections.

    Next, is to figure out how to keep practicing getting up and using my strength to make sure I am still able to get up and down from the toilet and such. This was the final straw why I ended up coming to the hospital, I was unable to get off the toilet and needed lift assistance, well this, and the major infections.

    Finally, I have to figure out what is next with the kidney stone. Apparently, I will have to have it “blasted” to get rid of it, but I was told that shouldn’t be a big deal.

    My biggest focus right now is getting up and being strong enough to get home, as I am feeling the need to get home and organized- I ordered a bunch of stuff, including my Zeen, and want to try it all out!

    Looking through the week, I am excited to have lunch with a friend and then an awesome facial scheduled for my niece’s birthday at the end of the week. I tried to cancel everything else going on in order to organize myself.

  • The End of an Era: Saying Goodbye to My Dear Sofi.

    I received news today about my dear Sofi! Sofi is my yellow lab that lived with me for over 10 years. She is about 16 years old and currently living with my friend, Lauren. Lauren was my caregiver in Florida.

    Lauren sent me a message that she believes it is time to let Sofi go- and cross the Rainbow Bridge. I am devastated. She has lived a great life and I am so fortunate that Lauren was able to take her when I moved back to Myrtle Beach.

    Sofi was an amazing dog who was beyond spoiled, especially by my dad. Her favorite thing was to share a publix banana pudding treat. She always knew she was going to be able to lick the final product.

    As a puppy, and young dog she was living with my brother and his five kids. She became an escape artist and had the entire neighborhood chance after her. She loved breaking free from the house and running the sidewalks of Carolina Forrest. She loved swimming in the pool and chasing the kids when they ran in and out of the pool.

    When it came time for my brother to sell his house, the kids begged me to take Sofi with me to the apartment. She was totally unprepared for this adjustment and it was hard on both of us. She didn’t know how to walk on a leash, but learned quickly with the support of a e-collar, which I hated to use, but got the job done. Then my health got so bad that I needed to quit work and file for disability benefits. This brought me to moving in with my parents.

    She loved “retirement.” We went for a walk around 2pm each day and then jumped into the pool. This occurred until i was too hard for me and her to get in and out of the pool. I decided to have some fun and got her all sort of accessories for different holidays. She was amazing at this time. I was often running to the hospital and utilizing the ambulance. She never ceased to amaze me. Sometimes I had to put her in her “room” and she fought it, unless I told her that I was going to the hospital, then she got right into her room and never made a peep. I know her last years were filled with love from Lauren’s family and lots of sleeping.

    So, Monday morning, Lauren is going to bring her to the vet that I loved so much and hopefully I will be able to FaceTime with her and order some memorial items. She was my first love and true responsibility as an adult. I learned how to bring a dog to the vet and get necessary care.

    I knew this day was coming. I feel like it is a necessary step in clearing things out in order to receive/befriend a service dog. I wish the dogs could have met, but that isn’t going to happen.

    In the meantime, please keep me in your prayers for this difficult time and for all the help from my friends- Lauren and Maria.